Now as I begin this, I need to start off by saying, I DO NOT regret this!! BUT… I would be lying if I said that there were no “uneasy” feelings. As much as this quarantine is hard, I am actually thankful for it. It gives me and my brain time to adjust to our new surroundings without throwing in the culture shock just yet, which I’m sure will come.
When we were still in Halifax, our last night, I was laying in bed with my husband and the anxious butterflies snuck in big time with all the unknowns. David could tell something was up and when I told him, his response was “It’s just you and me, in a different place”. I’m sure he didn’t know the impact of his simple words, but it made me think. 1. My love for him honestly just keeps getting stronger. He is my biggest supporter and I’m glad that I get to do this with my best friend. 2. Why do we get so attached to physical things? I mean I guess I get it; the physical things are attached to memories but why does getting rid of the physical thing make us feel like we are going to forget the memory when we won’t! Maybe not everyone feels this way, but I definitely do. You may be catching on that I am a very sentimental person… I can’t help it haha.
This is another reason why I am writing these blogs, I want to remember these moments, the good, great, and anxious ones. I want to remember the heightened feelings when we finally got our date to leave, the awe of walking in our house for the first time, the discovery of going into the city for the first time (we have yet to do this, thanks quarantine…), and yes, also the stress the whole process that it came along with. I want to be able to share these moments with our children and let them know that it is okay to have anxious feelings along with the exciting ones. That is what being human is all about. However, everyone needs to find their own way to help cope with them so that they don’t overtake and control you. I am FAR from perfect but the biggest thing I have learned is to not fight the feelings; know what they are, recognize them, know they are normal and use your coping mechanism to help them pass. The more I fought these feelings in the past, the worse they got.
Anyway, I know this one was on the serous side, but I think social media portrays this glamorous life without showing the reality that can come along with it. For me, it is important to also show the reality side of things.
Until next time,
Tracey
